daily draws for Shadowdancer

[shadowdancer]

29th December

we are still intensely in house hunting and house viewing mode. Mentally draining. I drew the queen of swords and was led to believe nothing would come from the day's endeavours.

I was right.

We saw two we liked and put an offer on one. It was rejected, and the feedback showed the owners were asking a huge amount they would not shift from. So yep, the barren landscape she is overlooking is still showing we have no house which will become ours - yet.

My fiancee was very disappointed by the let down, and it was down to me to reassure him and get his chin off the ground. We have to stay realistic and not let hearts rule our heads on this matter. Too much is at stake. This led to us also deciding not to put an offer on the second one. I broke it down to logistics of how it would be to live in, and he realised there was one aspect that would not be right.

the hunt continues to find something to fill that barren landscape

Davina

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30th December

5 of clubs
a very rare appearance from this suit. (I have kept a frequency chart for this deck, and clubs have only appeared 4 times in total - amazing really).

This deck shows someone regretting actions which have caused hurt to another. This happened in a minor way yesterday, where my partner felt bad about something he had done (which had not been intentional, and was just borne out of stress regarding the househunting).

Bless him he rushed out and bought me a bunch of flowers by way of apology. He realised he had misdirected his concerns in my direction although he knew it was not anything I had done (actions of a 3rd party).

The torches are lit around the two characters so there is still light and energy to unite them. I know I have that with my partner. Yes, the light may dim if one of both of us are going through a hard time, but they never go out.

That is where true work in a relationship happens. When one is going through a hard time, and the other in the relationship works their magic to support and bring back up the energies of the other

[shadowdancer]

31st December

today I drew the 8 of cups. Quite often this is about walking away in many other decks, but it doesn't necessarily indicate that in this deck.

Today, I was in a 'bear in a cave' mood. In other words, I just wanted to be by myself for no other reason than wanting own space. I thought the Hermit might show, but to be honest it wasn't a spiritual quest or personal space I wanted. To curl up all day with a puzzle book and some decent stuff on TV and I would have been happy

Not easy to do as my partner is still off on Christmas break. He knows when I go quiet and into the bedroom to read etc, not to take it personally. It does happen at times I just want to retreat for a day. As he is off work he was always around and I think that is shown by the lights around me on this card. He was following but not crowding me.

A good lesson to learn with this card - not to go into "walking away from something" mode, as that could be very wrong and far from the truth.

Summed up my day and inner thoughts well though

Davina

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2nd January

today we woke up to find we had been the victims of mindless vandalism at the front of the house. Sadly not the first time. (We had been tagged in the last 3 months or so, with our neighbours being repeat victims of tagging).

It is so darned sad. This was the best house we could find when we were looking to rent 12 months ago, and we felt happy we had something that would do us well as a temporary measure. At the time there was no indication that the road we live on has to put up with continuous hassle. This has just made us want to move sooner rather than later, and all because of mindless idiots who offer nothing to society.

Today was the 9 of diamonds and shows a female walking a path passing an empty chest. that chest really sums it up. At one time it was full and represented our current house, and how we felt we really had hit jackpot. It offered a lot and we felt so content. Now?? In recent months it feels as though it has done its bit and we now need to move on. The good / warm feeling we had 12 months ago has been replaced by.... nothing. And so the chest is empty. How representative is that eh. Just a desire to move on as there is nothing here for us where we feel content and settled. If only they knew the effect they have by causing this relentless damage to the neighbourhood.

Davina

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3rd January

bit of a belated posting here (busy morning)
Summing up of yesterday was the Moon.

Not sure my take on this to be honest. We did have a quieter, less hectic day. No agenda, just fun at a bbq with a lot of friends, and in Steve's case - cold beer and wine (spot the driver of the day....lol)
I think the Moon may be telling me the corner may be turned a little, and I am coming out of the emotional doldrums in a way. The two fish with me will die but I will continue moving on. Just got to follow my instincts and realise it is okay to show changing emotions, just as the moon changes its form on a regular basis.

Not a lot to add really. Just a nice feel to the image.

Davina

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18th January

well it is good to be back after a hectic 2 weeks of family visit etc.

2 of wands

now they have left, we have again been on the house hunting trail. yesterday we saw the perfect house. It really ticked every box and some. Problems? Yep, location being the main one.

Steve has hovered between wanting it and not wanting to travel a long way to work. I just want the right place and right house to be illuminated. This search is tiring and no longer any fun. Interestingly there is no path shown on this card as such, but the light is coming down, and the character is also raising a couple of candles. Not sure the candle light is making much difference but any little helps I guess. It could be saying spirit are trying to do their bit by sending light down, but I have to make a bit more of an effort than just offer up a couple of candles. Reminds me of a joke where a guy was granted a wish of being rich and winning the lottery. It didn't happen because he thought he could take his foot off the gas and didn't bother buying the lottery ticket.  I know we will find the right house at the right time, but come on guys - please just show us which direction to go in so we know we are on the right track so to speak. I promise to be more positive and follow through with where the energy is taking us.

Hopefully further readings will show different themes. The house hunting theme is getting too long now. We have a house inspection Wednesday (rented accomodation gets 3 monthly inspections) so maybe that will be the theme for a change

[shadowdancer]

20th January

this is interesting, so bear with me whilst I have a bit of a preamble.

In the last year, maybe 3 or 4 times now I have had something happen when I am between the sort of asleep but also sort of awake state. There has been a very vivid and clear picture slide behind my eyelids.

The latest time this happened was this morning, and all I saw was a path leading away from me to a gateway leading to the road. Either side of the gateway was your standard bush or hedge growth, so although the image was clear, it could be to any one of a hundred properties. I paid heed though. It could be spirit are trying to show me the path after all

Well, the card chosen today shows someone with their back to their destination looking down a long path. The 10 lit torches I have written about for sure when I wrote the LWB, and saw they could be seen as spiritual sources lighting the way or standing guard as you take that next daunting step.

I think I will accept I am being guided for sure, and not lose hope, particularly if on any given day my grumpy side is moaning that I don't know where to go. (as per the previous card for the daily draw).

I sense I may be near the end too in that respect if this card is anything to go by. Or there will be a new phase start. We have shifted our focus from houses on the market and are now considering buying a plot and having something built instead. A big change indeed. Although the image I saw was not that of something that was being created - it was already established.

This card is giving me heart and I will not lose the faith that I am being supported and guided. Heck they sure put up with a lot from me, particularly when I am in that grumpy mood

Davina

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21st January

Well, not sure what is indicating really. I know I have made reference to the "keeping people at arms length" issue before, and this was what came to mind when I drew her.

It wouldn't be my partner, but as we have dragons here, I wonder if this could relate to business people. Not letting them get too close whereby they could take advantage, yet at the same time being approachable as they may be able to help us both with a venture in the future.

Interesting dynamics, and a very fine balancing act she is demonstrating of being open and vulnerable but only to a certain degree. Otherwise there is a danger of being engulfed or wrapped in something that is not easy to get out of.

A nice one to muse for the day ahead...

Davina

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22nd January

well, today was 2 of wands again (was drawn on the 18th also)

I sort of have a tingle here, but know the bubble could be burst if my partner doesn't like the house.

Today I went viewing on my own whilst he was at work and it was an instant fall in love job on my part. Every box was ticked for me and some. And..... walking back down the driveway it was very similar to the image I had behind my eyelids a couple of nights ago. I have such a good feeling about it, but - my partner has yet to see it and he is far more picky than I am. The garage has a workshop also (big tick) and there is also an ensuite bathroom (another tick) The gardens are to die for.

This card shows the path being lit, but there is no path beyond the lit bit if that makes sense. Does this mean where the light is being shone indicates there is no need to go anywhere further? Certainly if it were down to me, I wouldn't be looking for that path.

however it is not just down to me. Steve hates it. So, the search goes on.....lol

Davina

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24th January

King of Diamonds

today was a special day. I spent 45 minutes inside an enclosure with 4 hand reared cheetah cubs. They were 9 months old. Suffice to say the exerience was humbling and one I will never forget.

I remember the story behind the King of Diamonds and how he had a role of watching over the earth. The experience today really was a stark reminder of the responsibility humankind has to ensure the survival of the earth and all beings on it. Too much destruction or loss is either directly or indirectly caused by our arrogance.

These wee ones showed how humanity can reverse fortunes. The keeper was one of two who worked in 12 hour shifts, 7 days a week over 6 weeks to get them through those early days of hand rearing. A terrific responsibility but one they should both be proud of. The cubs will grow and be part of a breeding programme to keep these magnificant animals going.

Amazing experience and very humbling. My memory will end with how myself and my partner snuggled one to sleep. The trust it had in us to caress it was incredible.

Davina

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25th January

8 diamonds

I have this as a print in my bedroom and is one card I think could tell a hundred stories over time.

I think today though it is taking me back to ground level after my cheetah experience and is back on the house hunting theme. There is something out there that is the right build and place for us, but I am not seeing it - yet. The tree of life indicates to me I am being guided to the right one for my overall development and next stage of life. Therefore I have to accept it is an important move and to trust in the process. The landscape is bare and that is interesting as we are now looking seriously at the option of building something on a plot of land.

Time will tell I guess.

Davina

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another appearance for this card.

I am feeling more than a little rough today which started 2 days ago on the day of the AC/DC concert (which I had no intention of missing so dosed up a little with panadol beforehand. What a show!! - they are ultimate rockers)   

I see this character as standing protective over his domain but it did make me realise what we cherish and look after should sometimes be ourselves or our health as opposed to material possessions. I could have gone out today with my partner looking at show homes etc, but chose to curl up in bed instead and let him go on his own. I wouldn't usually see this card as being linked to looking out for number one, but there is little by way of finery in the image. He has what he needs around him and nothing more. Yet he knows how important it is to protect even that. I don't need to push myself at the moment so chose not to today. My partner is an absolute star when I am poorly and really is protective (a bit too mother henish at times but I can understand he has good intent), and the stance this character is taking is almost how I see my partner when he is in this mode.

Davina

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Daily draw for 31st January - Hanged Man

This was drawn at the end of the day to give an overview of what had gone before. I have been in bed most of the day with a bit of a virus/bug and felt as if my head was someone elses ....lol

I was sort of expecting the 4 of swords but then realised this would relate to mental tiredness as opposed to physical. This showed I didn't do anything other than hang around not doing much or not even having the ways to do much. I know when you hang upside down for any length of time your head goes funny and that is how my head felt today (dehydration etc).

Not a lot to add really, but it did sum up the 'nothing' day I had. I hate being ill, but seeing as I haven't even has as much as a cold for 16 months now I can't complain.

Davina